Mood
This morning I woke up tired. But the world was within control. Lunch time brought dread and foreboding. Then boredom and a need to escape. My return home was optimistic and turned into tiredness and sleep. Now the weekend is ending and guilt is peeping through.
I am in my garden now and in the moment. There is no anything. No dread, no future, no past. Just me. I can smell my skin. My smell makes my smile beam. I love the way my skin smells. My hair glistens. My breath is slow, deep and controlled. My mind floats.
And then Geoff next door starts up his lawn mower. I creep inside, hiding behind the plants like a Navy seal, cover blown.